The new reality

It hits me at different times, for different reasons. But with each little “milestone,” the emotions and sense of loss fill my chest. I spent most of the day yesterday alone at mom’s house. I’ve been surrounded and supported by loving friends and family for the last two weeks. But I felt I needed some

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Flowers

I often joked with mom that whatever flowers I were to give would be given in life when she could appreciate them. That said, if those who cared for her are so moved, I would suggest the following as places to send memorial gifts in lieu of flowers: Her name is Maria Herminia Avila St.

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Mom

My mother passed away this morning at 6:40, with me and my dearest sister-friend Jenn at her side. Her breathing had gotten very hard, like she was climbing a mountain. But this morning something changed. As we looked at her, she opened her eyes, took one last breath and stopped. A look of softness came

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Faith

This last year has rattled my foundation to the core. I have seen my mother suffer the indignity of disease, disability and invasive treatments. I have watched her suffer, and have thrown my anger toward any god that would do that to her — the person who least deserves it, who obediently did everything she

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Update

Mom continues her fight, confounding the nurses and doctors. Today makes a week that she had surgery. She has not spoken or engaged with us since we brought her home. I am reassured by the hospice team that she seems comfortable. The vigil continues.

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Home

Mom was brought to her home by ambulance today. She knew it and you could see in her eyes she recognized her home of 40 years. It took a bit to get her into the tiny 900 square foot cottage with narrow doors and tight corners, but between the EMTs and Greg we figured it

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